The Two Hopeless Alcoholics

Our journey together the started almost fifteen years ago me coming back from my second stint in rehab and her  in the serenity house for recovering addicts and alcoholics. What a pair one of the first things you learn when you  are new to recover is do not enter into a new relationship with another person fresh into recover. Linda my future wife knew her future was an unpredictable one because of an illness she was born with (it was degenerative) so she had to take what happiness she could grab. It all started on a Friday after our seven o’clock meeting when she walked up to me and whispered I think you’re cute what are you going to do about it. I was surprised and the only thing I could think to say was I think you’re cute too. Linda had me from that day on I was hooked I started falling hard we started talking on the phone every night and seeing each other when ever we could.

Linda was the love of my life I just had no idea until after I lost her. She made everyday a joy no matter how she felt she had joy in her heart I loved this about her. Never one to waste a minute on things she had no control over Linda liked to focus on the here and now. Linda made me a better person I had no idea a person could be happy without a fear of the unknown. Today I struggle with her lost because I truly believe I lost my better half on January *, 2015. I miss the tomorrows, my best friend, my level head, and the part of my that slowed down before make rash decisions. The rash decision part always had trouble with the impulsivity it is a work in progress although I fear it may never be completed. I am a better person for having known and loved Linda Stephanie Knox. I will remember,cherish, and continue to make her proud of me.

I love you and miss you Babe.



Not the Party of Lincoln

If Lincoln was a live to day to see what has become of his party he would cry out this is not what I stand for. Today’s Republican Party is the party of the Wealth, Greedy, Selfish and Racists and lets not forget the Religious intolerant. I say this not to be mean but because no one else will say the truth not our politicians, nor the media. One of the biggest tenants of the Republican party is that government should stay out of peoples lives. People should do for themselves unless a woman wants to make choices about her body then government knows best, unless gay people wish to get married then government knows best, Unless minorities want to vote then lets block the vote.

Republicans care more about the rich than about the average person if you do not believe me look at what this congress has done to help the working poor, middle class, homeless ,and veterans. I dare you to find one piece of legislation writing to help the people who need it the most  if the Republicans cared they would have worked with the Democrats and President to pass one of his Jobs bills, extend unemployment, raise the minimum wage. Not the Keystone Pipeline, not TTP things that do not help the average American but the rich people in Oil and working on Wall Street.

The Republican party is no longer the party of Lincoln an inclusive party but a party of hate, fear and exclusion. What amazes me is that the few Minorities, Women, and Gay people stay around; the at time blatant hate shown to people who have different views.

Revaluation of my Life


Have you ever had a time when you knew what you wanted to do with the rest of your life to only to discover or so you think you may have made a mistake.  I have reached the point in my life where I feel I need to revaluate my life. What I have seen so far looks like one bad decision after another I picked my wife and myself up and moved to New Mexico only not find a place to live. Got a job in Texas working at a Juvenile correction facility for girls only to leave chasing the almighty dollar to Nevada to discover I made a mistake.  I say that because after we moved I found out the employees in my job classification got a raise if I had only waited. But no I was not satisfied so we moved to a place were I am not only bringing home less but we are living foul.

Had an opportunity to start over again but made another bad decision and here we are stuck. I a place I am not happy and I am stressing my wife making her unhappy. Neither of us wants to go back to Indiana especially her I am willing because I know it is safe. However it is not what I really want what I want is to make a good decision and settle down. complete my Masters and live a happy life.

Abortion and the Rights Fight

The Republicans and the extreme right are starting off 2014 with a bang. The march on Washington on the anniversary of Roe v. Wade will set the tone. I am not a big believer of a person forcing his or her belief on another I believe it to be wrong morally and ethical. However, the people on the right (Republicans) feel that it is okay as long as they do so under cover of free speech.

I say that is not true it is never okay to force your belief on another. No matter the issue, abortion, how you feel about LGBT community or Religion. But I digress I wanted to talk about abortion. I want to say to the pro-lifers get a life. The woman who  chooses to have an abortion should be the least of your concerns. Because if you are a good Christian you follow what the Bible teaches.

Matthew 7-1-7-5

1Judge not, that ye be not judged.2For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.3 And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?4 Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam [is] in thine own eye?5 Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.

Luke 6-37

Luke 6:37- Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:

Romans Chapter 2-1-2-3

1 Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things.2 But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things.3 And thinkest thou this, O man, that judgest them which do such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God?

I found over 21 verses that say’s that the pro-lifers are wrong for forcing his or her belief on others. The intentions maybe good but the Bible does not distinguish good intentions and the fact that you are judging other people(women). In fact you do not have to stand with her when she meets her maker and he passes judgment however you do need stand before him when he passes judgment on you.  When you pro-lifers stand out side abortion clinics and make it harder for women to control their own body Remember what Jesus did he faced a mob that was eager to execute a woman caught in adultery. He put a stop to it with a simple challenge.

John 8:7

So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.


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